It was a normal year. It seems not much had changed then I made some goals and succeeded in reaching a few. The highlight was probably the new living room furniture from Ikea in May. The flooded living room prompted a move that I've questioned if it was the right place for me many times. I've been here since July and still can't get settled in. It just doesn't work out right for some reason.
October brought an unexpected change in my life. Someone I meet five years ago found me on Facebook. We were both still single so we got together and have been together every since. Now THAT is an experience when you've been single your whole life and haven't dated in more years than I care to admit to! ;-)
November ended well. The honey and I went to Nashville to visit my 2nd family. Every one raved about him and I enjoyed having someone on my road trip. Little did I know what the week after Thanksgiving would bring.
December is about to become my least favorite month. I love the Christmas decorations, the lights, and all that but really when bad luck happens it is December that brings it. In a nutshell, a breast biopsy revealed cancer cells were present. That news is devastating and instantly changes your life. I could try to explain but maybe another blog at another time.
Prior to all the test being run it was simply Stage III but very aggressive and had to be tackled accordingly. Chemo, mastectomy, radiation, and some kind of hormone therapy were on the drawing board. My mind froze at the "m" word and the tears flowed with an abundance.
Amazing enough the honey (aka, Matt) said he would stick around for this new venture in life. I never expected that but he took his time to be mad, cry, and he's been here every since. Some times life is just funny that way.
After the other test they do, it changed to Stage IV because it has spread to the bones. There is something about a doctor saying you are not curable and the prognosis being 2.5-3 years that will stop you in your tracks. I know 90% of the battle will be attitude but it takes a while to get your mind around that road block.
However, a few days after that news we headed out to spend time with his family and then a week with mine so the final week of 2009 was great! I miss my family and love to visit when I can. We all had a good time and ate way too much.
It's 2010 and the battle begins. Not sure anyone even reads this blog but I'm sure I will be using it in the future so I wanted to explain how it went from photography or a funny post to cancer!
2 comments:
Pam, I'm a "subscriber"(lol) to your blogs! I figured out today(all by myself!:) how to add your FB notes to my favorites bar, and will do the same with this blog. I remembered reading it when we first FB "friended", and was glad to remember it today and see that you're going to keep updating. And I'll even log in to Twitter and follow you there, too! (I'm evalesmis, if it ever pops up) You are a TRIP, and have a real knack for blogging. Something makes me cry AND laugh every time. Keep it up! Your resolve to fight this is such an inspiration and you're in my prayers. But for the record, I'm pissed this has happened to you. Pissed! Lots of love to you~Vicki
I read your blog :)
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