Cancer Tip #2

I believe it is like being pregnant. I'm not 100% sure on that but from what I have heard from pregnant women I am pretty sure it is real similar.

Why?
I'll tell you.

Prior to chemo unpacking from my recent but yet-not-so-recent move was a priority. This would be like nesting. I tried to get it all done and it weighed on my mind. I got some of it done but it was really a major priority & burning need to be done BEFORE chemo began. I would lay awake at night rearranging furniture to make it all fit, wondering what box some knick knack I love was in, and I just had to have the 2nd bedroom as a functioning bedroom. (That part got worked out but I do believe the boxes are just multiplying. Perhaps they misunderstand my theory and got pregnant by mistake???? Something is going on or I simply have way too much stuff! I know the answer to that but I like my reproducing box theory better.....) It's crazy how the madness came over me to scrub, vacuum, get a bed skirt that I've put off for years, etc. Pregnant women talk about this! I've seen them kick into gear. I know!!!

Then the food cravings hit and WHAT A RIDE. One day you just have to have potato chips. The next day you can't stand them and it's a grape popsicle you crave. The TV shows Red Lobster and you dream of it awake and asleep. You see it every where you look and finally just have to go get you some. (I really think this one is Mike's fault because the craving didn't strike until I saw it in high def on a 50 inch tv and how can you fight that???)

Or it could be tater tots that inspire a craving so bad that you would almost look up a recipe to make your own tots if a friend had not gone to the store for you. Brownies call your name and they refuse to let you deny them the chance to dance on your taste buds. Unfortunately, the brownies win the contest for lasting the longest in the food cravings and the 9x12 pan empties too quickly.... and with no help from anyone. Mercifully, the scales are not nearby. Probably lost in a box somewhere and it's two weeks before the doctor makes you weigh in....

When you least expect it, something pops into your mind via a commercial or a forgotten memory and you simply cannot survive another day without having it. It's crazy. And for every pregnant woman that has gained 70lbs or more, I feel your pain. How could you possibly fight cravings this strong for 9 months???? It's a wonder all women don't gain 100 pounds when expecting!!!!

Cravings are a part of life and I've never been one to deny myself when a craving hits & lingers. But these cravings.... they just reach out, grab you by the neck, and pull you to wherever you need to be to fulfill it. It's totally out of control and I swear if you try to eat fresh fruit or make do with something else it is like eating cardboard. (Hey, there is a way to get rid of some boxes and maybe lose weight??? LOL)
And there is nothing in the world like the moment your taste buds experience whatever they happened to crave. It's magic. It's divine. And for that moment you simply enjoy the smell, the taste, and even the texture of it. Cancer can be forgotten. The side effect of chemo are gone with a bite. You can sigh and be happy.

Until it starts all over again....I'm not pregnant but you may see me fighting in an aisle somewhere with a pregnant woman if we both crave the same thing and only one is left. LOL