The bald headed diva look that I've joked about for a while now is about to show up. I really hope my head is pretty and not misshaped or warped from who knows what. Maybe I can find a picture of myself as a newborn to get some idea of what I'll look like???
Last week I was so excited that my hair seemed thicker & fuller. In my younger years, I signed everything "the one & only, Pamela D." because I'm so special & unique! For example, if it is going to happen the total opposite of normal then it will happen to me. So I was thinking perhaps chemo was going to work the opposite on my hair & I'd have long hair by the time this was over with.
WRONG! It was a few strands here & there the past few days but every one sheds some. No worries. I did the tug & pull test. It was all there. Today I did the tug & pull test and promptly got tears in my eyes. So much fell out when I took my shower that the tub wouldn't drain water. It's going with a quickness.
The arrangements were made in December for one of my friends to shave my head when it is time. Mike will make me laugh the whole time. He is one of my best friends and just has a way of making things alright. So he is the designated head shaver and I guess I better let him know it might be soon. I think we'll do a Mohawk, take pictures, and then continue with the Mr. Clean look.
I'm wondering if I should shave it now or wait until I look like Yoda??? I don't think I can pull of the Yoda look too well. And not sure it's time for bald either. It still looks like a head full of hair to the casual observer. I have thick hair so I might can squeeze a another week or two out. Hmmm....I think I'll just have to wait and see on this one. NOT MY NATURE TO WAIT & SEE but I'm not ready to be bald... just yet.
Time to google and see if I can find anything out there that will tell me how soon it is gone once this phase hits. Surely someone else has experienced then? And hopefully someone more patient than I because after that first handful I was ready to reach for some clippers! ;-)
Last week I was so excited that my hair seemed thicker & fuller. In my younger years, I signed everything "the one & only, Pamela D." because I'm so special & unique! For example, if it is going to happen the total opposite of normal then it will happen to me. So I was thinking perhaps chemo was going to work the opposite on my hair & I'd have long hair by the time this was over with.
WRONG! It was a few strands here & there the past few days but every one sheds some. No worries. I did the tug & pull test. It was all there. Today I did the tug & pull test and promptly got tears in my eyes. So much fell out when I took my shower that the tub wouldn't drain water. It's going with a quickness.
The arrangement
I'm wondering if I should shave it now or wait until I look like Yoda??? I don't think I can pull of the Yoda look too well. And not sure it's time for bald either. It still looks like a head full of hair to the casual observer. I have thick hair so I might can squeeze a another week or two out. Hmmm....I think I'll just have to wait and see on this one. NOT MY NATURE TO WAIT & SEE but I'm not ready to be bald... just yet.
Time to google and see if I can find anything out there that will tell me how soon it is gone once this phase hits. Surely someone else has experienced then? And hopefully someone more patient than I because after that first handful I was ready to reach for some clippers! ;-)
6 comments:
That's tough girl. But if all your hair does fall out, you could get a bunch of wigs and have a different hairstyle everyday! :) I love wigs, I have a short red one that I wear sometimes to work. They're fun. There's a big wig store down by where I live and I know that Dolly Parton makes a line. :)
You could also start a collection of bad ass bandanas and wear those. :) You could even bedazzle them! :) There are so many bandana patterns and colors, one for every mood and outfit :).
You can be "Jackie O" and get a bunch of fancy scarves... ooh-la-la!
Or you could just choose to be bald and beautiful. :) If you go that route there's people who have sold advertising space on their head. I'm sure there are many companies that would love to tout their product on your lovely head :) *hehe*.
Whatever you choose to do, you will ALWAYS be beautiful and the strongest woman I know.
Love you Girl!
Delaney
Here's the little boy I was talking about :)
http://www.sptimes.com/2007/10/09/Features/Success__one_marrow_d.shtml
wow....I'm emotional about it and it isn't even my hair...It is so much a part of what we are or what we think makes us pretty huh? We spend time fixing it, styling, washing it for dates, outings with friends and family etc...it is what is part of our femininity....Our boyfriends ran their fingers through it...our mothers too...(not trying to sound weird), but it is ours damn it!!! I hope you will be okay and I do agree, with your beautiful eyes and great smile you will look great! It's okay Pam..Love, Angie
Angela's right, I just re-read my post from yesterday and I sounded a little flippant. I can't imagine what you're going through. Losing your hair is a big thing to cope with.
The reason I used humor is because that's the way I get through things. My motto's always been, "If you don't laugh you'll cry." I shouldn't have assumed that you deal with things in the same manner. I admire you immensely and I'm praying for you everyday.
Love,
Delaney
P.S.: If you ever want to talk give me a call
(615) 714-7599.
Delaney, it's all good. I love your sense of humor & I do tend to go through life finding whatever humor I can!! It beats crying!!! Thanks for your number now delete that comment so it's not out there for the world to see!!!! ;p
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